Sex is it serious business?

"Casual sex " is a term I have never really been able to get my mind around, ok I know what it means! Im not a complete idiot...I mean its something that I have a hard time internalizing. I can't picture myself being able to have sex which is basically devoid of meaning other than the act itself. I will admit that when I was very young I had a few what I would describe as meaningless encounters only because I didn't know what was going on, nor did I really think I would score!

I take sex and the stuff that surrounds it seriously, and have done so for a very long time, and this attitude has certainly caused me to have less sex than I could have had. I can recall several occassions while I was in university where I could have scored but I didnt follow through. I was a health nut in university and a gym freak, so I did get some attention from the fairer sex. I guess it didn't help that I was "scared" of women and didn't know how to speak to them. UG Im getting off topic here, back to sex, or the lack of sex...

My parents were rather puritan in their views, and all they ever said to us kids about sex was "Dont have it until you are married" which equipped all of the kids with great tools to function in the modern world!! I am sure that the serious upbringing from my parents is part of the reason for my attitude on sex.

My real question to myself is has this attitude served me well? Why take sex so seriously? Why not just have fun with it? Does sex have to be serious business? Is it really wrong to just have "fun" sex between consenting adults? I know the way Im wired I doubt I would be able to have casual sex as I would be wracked with guilt...for some reason to me sex is meant to be more than the act itself. Ok, another factor is I doubt I would be able to feel comfortable enough to have sex with someone I don't know or trust. I don't judge those who are having casual sex, I am pretty liberal in my views on sex, so its not a matter of that.

I guess from my last several posts its pretty clear that I am have some existential issues, which is nothing new for me, but given the life changes I am going through I am taking stock of alot of things. I wonder what good times I have deprived myself of, just because I hold such a romantic or sentimental view of sex. Should sex only be an expression of love?!

I guess I have sex on the brain because sex is a good stress reliever and I am going through a bit of stress...so of course because Im a fucktard I don't only think about having sex, but about the meaning behind sex...sigh...